May be triggering.
Mikayla Hope. 15.
Recovering. Slowly
| Disorder | Your Score |
|---|---|
| Major Depression: | High |
| Dysthymia: | Moderate |
| Bipolar Disorder: | Very High |
| Cyclothymia: | Extremely High |
| Seasonal Affective Disorder: | High |
| Postpartum Depression: | N/A |
| Take the Depression Test | |
My word vomit
fuckfinity asked: "If anyone reads this.. and anyone actually cares.. let me know? Caus’ I’m starting to think the amount of people that actually do is getting very small." I care...i care about any problems you have! if you ever want to speak-don't hesitate<3 xxxxxxx
I know its a late reply, but thankyou so much
Can you keep a secret? I don’t suppose you can. You mustn’t laugh. You mustn’t cry, just do the best you can. I want death. Well. More like, I want help. But me being me I’m too scared to ask. Either that or I’m too lazy. I want some fucker to wave their magical god damn wand and make me better. I want to live my fucking life not worrying that people think I’m fat. Not worrying what people think of me. Not trying to calculate how many calories is in something, when I still fucking eat it anyway. I’m tired of being able to appear as so.. ‘real’ online then falling short in real life. I’m tired of lying to people! Sometimes I don’t even have to fucking try, sometimes I don’t even realise i’ve done it. I’m tired of being labelled as the depressed attention seeker. I’m tired of being shy, I’m tired of being lazy I’M TIRED OF BEING A FUCKING PUSHOVER, I’m tired of convincing myself that everyone hates me, when in reality they don’t - but by the time I work that out I’ve pushed them away. I’m tired of hating myself so much. I’m tired of cutting, yet I love it so much. I fucking love seeing my own blood and having that sense that ‘I did a good job’. I can garuntee you, if it wasn’t for the fact that my family would be sad. I’d of taken every fucking pill in our cupboard. I don’t care how painful it is to OD. I don’t care that my brain still functions for 7 minutes after death. I don’t care how many of you think I have a future. I don’t. I’m a fuck up. I deserve to die.
I’m sorry followers, I’m not risking it!
(Source: CNN, via extraelectric)
dreams-of-p-a-r-a-d-i-s-e asked: Honey.. Please, you worth way more than this. You are beautiful, amazing, funny, UNIQUE. It will get better.. I can't say it will right now, but it will. I promise. You just need to stick around to see.. StayStrong♥ xoxox
Thankyou darling xx I plan on sticking around <3 xxxx
